Shabbat Shalom everyone. I felt to express my personal version of what it is like for me here in this time of war. The sirens, the thuds of rockets landing close by, the constant thuds and impact (which makes the doors in our apartment rattle) of rockets landing in the very northern tip of Israel and in southern Lebanon is taxing and scary.
However, I can handle that – what is most consuming for me is being a mother of a son who is literally in the heart of the battle up there at Avavim on the Lebanse border. I have not had to endure or experience anything like this, or walk this path before, so it is a new level of trust in the Lord that I have ever been thrust into. It is an hour by hour walk for me. Each time we hear from Stefan, ( praise the Lord for cell phones ) it brings me tremendous relief to know that he is still alive. Each time I hear that a soldier has been wounded or killed, I weep like it is my own son. I have lost my appetite.
Last night I did not sleep, I was up until the very early hours of the morning. At one stage I lay prostrate on the floor of our office for a long time weeping and praying. As I lay there, I became aware of my cat beside me, he began sniffing my arms, hair and face… so gently, feeling his gentle breath on my bare skin, and purring and crying at the same time – he sat beside me like a faithful little puppy – it really comforted me. I believe the Lord allowed that, and as I looked back in reflection this morning, I sensed the Holy Spirit saying “that is how close I am to you”.
Thank you all for your prayers, encouragement, love, comfort, little devotions, songs etc etc you have sent – it has meant measures to me, and thank you for continuing to “walk this path” with us until we see it come to an end…………..Shabbat Shalom in the name of Yeshua our Messiah, David & Josie